Is This How We Learn Your Names?


For Dapchi

Is this how we learn your names?
Soaked in blood and tears
drenched in the stench of a nation’s fears.
Would I ever know
Buni Yadi, Chibok, Dapchi
places so pretty
stained by tragedy
bent by the weight of wails ?
My feet have not kissed your dust
but my heart beats for your loss
I long to gather you in my arms
kiss away this pain that keeps growing
a gluttonous cavern, an abyss
which never goes away. Will you
ever get past this to become what you could have been before the war?
what can we call it when our daughters are stolen sons slaughtered
homes set ablaze mercy lost.
Innocents made casualties in a matter
they know nothing about. My arms are too small, my feet feeble but my voice will scream your pain to the heavens
my pen will record your groans, my books will carry your grief, my lens will collect your tears And one day
when pain and war are no more
we will lift an altar to your sacrifice
And at its base will be inscribed
No more death, no more pain, no more loss.


Should You Say Yes When A Doctor Proposes?

Should you say yes when a doctor proposes?

If you are strong of mind, steely of soul unsettled by blood urine vomit and gore

If stories of pain and hurt make you wish there were ways to help and you could do more

If you are accustomed to Valentines spent on telephone, Christmas spent working, many a lonely night

If you are never tired of hearing about suffering, cancer, Zika, Lassa, Ebola and mosquito bite

If you have experience waiting for things the Patience of Job, the calm of kings

If you know how it feels to hope for cures that may not come

Of you are wealthy enough for two an astute manager, administrator too

If you are contented, at peace, not one who dreams for the moon and sun

If making do with what you have is your strong suit, a hobby of yours

If sacrifice is your middle name and economics your favourite course

If you know how to water visions like palms, day and night though they seem to stall

If you know how to ease away stress and importantly, how to dress!

If you have nursed sick things to health or helped them up from a fall,

If you are a good listener, unmoved by words you do not understand

Then by all means, as the doctor kneels, gladly take their hand.

Celebrate Your Valentine Without A Dime

Hold her/him/them/it
in your arms
talk, about the way they have changed you
the joy they bring to your life
how happy you are to be with them.

Write their name on paper,
sand, a tree trunk or the sky
in a bed of hearts.

Take photographs of them smiling
eyes closed, lifted to the light
save, title it: My Beating Heart.

Listen to them breathe

Rub their feet
Hold their hands
Look into their eyes

Say: I would never want to be without you
Never want a world where you are not there
You are my everything.


He Called My Home A Shithole

He called my home a shithole,
I know he meant a dark place filled with flies and smells that make you retch where waste and decay reign,
I know he meant I was less in some way coming from that place.

My home maybe dark but is also full of joy: people laugh in trouble,
children smile with hunger,
lands yield bountiful and green.

It smells sometimes: cloying stench of corrupt, gluttonous leaders and rotten systems; but at others,
the air is clear with the scent of rain, Queen of the Night and palm wine.

There is waste and decay, but from these life grows, seeds take root and soon will fruit.

It is not the names called but the nature of a place that matters,
the good that spring from it,
life, hope, happiness,
the sound of laughter, dance steps
and revival rising from her depths to conquer all.

Little Wars

My mom is Isreali and my dad is Palestinian, in my body both countries are still at war.

I killed an ant in Jerusalem today and I’m the mirror I saw the face of an enemy horde.

I mixed my spit in the sand and I can’t tell where one begins and the other ends.

When I return to Earth let me be as a bird, free to live wherever I please.

On Christmas

You came to us on a day like this proclaiming love,goodwill and cheer,
we gather round to celebrate the thought that you did care, to leave your mansions and streets of gold to take on dirty flesh, and through your birth we all can find our way back to what we lost,
in the parties presents and noise
it is so easy to forget
that the reason you came
was to show us how to give and not to get,
as we wine and dine and waltz
let us never forget,
to show love to everyone: family, enemy and friend.

Free Pass

You might get a free pass that day when you show Him why you didn’t believe. With many brilliant theorems, arguments and proofs you might convince Him that He couldn’t have been.

I will never be in that place, capable of denying the wonders of His grace. I have seen Him work through my despair, rescue me and answer my prayers. He has touched my flesh and saved my soul, I would sooner deny myself than let that lie be told.

God is real, though our human minds may not have the range or receptors to seek Him out. But in my heart I know without a doubt, His love and mercy found my mouth. You might get a free pass that day but I must testify of what I know, God is real and good to me.